went into my Akashic Library today with the outcome left totally
in Gods hands. I had made not a single request.
I opened the curtain of the elevator there was nobody there.
I stepped inside and looked around just to make sure. It was
then I decided to go and sit at my desk and write my letter
to Father, our Wondrous Parent, which is how I personally
perceive this wonderful Creator of All That Is.
began typing the words that were written in my heart, and
when I paused and looked up, how surprised I was to see Dr.
Mendoza, quickly stride from my elevator! With a smile he
took my hands and proceeded to tell me that he had been delayed
with a patient, but he was here now, and he would gladly give
me his undivided attention. With both my hands in his, he
asked me to close my eyes and think about God in whatever
way I wished to envisage Him; to imagine Him immensely powerful
in the Center of All That Is.
Mendoza: Picture His all-powerful love flowing from
this central spot. Ever outward it flows, past countless galaxies,
much like the photographs that so fascinate you. Once again,
picture this same love reaching its destination, which is
you. Allow it to flow into your heart, opening those closed
areas, and bringing light to the things that confuse and frighten
awhile with these thoughts, and then proceed to the quiet
peacefulness of stillness. Do this, child, every time you
prepare to enter your sacred space; your quiet place before
God. Then you will understand all that you wish to know, see
all that you wish to see, and hear all that you wish to hear.
It is then that you will discover the great potential that
lies within you. I understand that the chaos of your thoughts
over so lengthy a period is disturbing you greatly, but know
that this is an area where we cannot help you. You must do
this inner work and no one else may interfere. We offer you
our love and support, but we know that you have the strength
and desire to overcome your fears.
I do not know what the future holds, or what exactly
I am to do, but I offer my services to your healing efforts.
Mendoza: That is acknowledged and I thank you. You
will not be forgotten. Now I have others in need of my care
and attention. I must tell you goodbye for now, but we will
be seeing much of you in the future.
those words he was gone, and I was left alone and in joyful
tears -- alone, yet not lonely, as I sensed others about me
that remained unseen. I still feel as if a great weight has
been lifted from my heart, and as I leave my Akashic Library
with renewed purpose and resolve, I pray. Thank you
Father for answering my prayer. I love You and once again
dedicate my life to Your will and service.