I
had not been spending that quiet time with God. I felt I had
been too busy to do that, yet my soul longed for that contact
that only our spiritual self can instigate by us taking the
time to walk with God, talk with God, commune with God.
I
had to get away from the inner turmoil that I felt, as I worried
about my putting off until the last minute an important homework
assignment. I had been doing the preliminaries -- my research
portion -- for several days. The writing part would have to
take place today; the deadline, probably minutes from midnight,
just barely legal. Yes that pressure! And also
feeling like I never actually got enough done at my job, and
also not taken the time to do my exercise walks. This made
me feel, sort of small, and like someone who needed to get
away from it all.
I
went out into the blazing sun and 96 degree weather as I resolved
to go for a short 30-minute walk. A few steps into it, I thought
about the Akashic Construct and decided to do that at the
same time, so then I started the descent through the rainbow
colors. The blazing sun would not stop me?! Then I turned
a corner and started to realize that I really needed to get
out of the sun for the Construct to be effective (I remember
Georges admonition to not sit in the sun directly when
attempting to go to the AC).
As
I walked onward, I felt so sad that I was not able to visualize
my favorite place in nature that I thought to be so necessary
as part of the experience. However, as I was walking, I was
noticing the trees, the grass color, all the details everywhere,
and I was enjoying my walk, even though I probably would not
enter my Akashic Construct that day. I thought that the Celestial
Visitors could walk with me right at that moment, that this
would be my living Akashic Construct, and that is exactly
what occurred.
Jesus
assured me that He was there with me, and would always be!
It was so nice to take a walk with Jesus! I felt that His
love and understanding went way beyond my own, but that He
did not mind that. He was there, and He appreciated me, and
welcomed me to this meditation. It was wonderful. The sun
continued to blaze, I continued to walk, and I was happy to
take this 30 minutes in my life to think of love, kindness,
beauty, and understanding, and our Creators never-ending
love for us all.
I
did get my homework done. It turned out to be fairly easy
to do, and I had to laugh that when I sent it in by e-mail,
the time said 21:12:01 -- the numbers inverted (21:12) is
a little game with the Celestials. Any doubles or inversions
and I am right there, paying attention! I got a pass
on the homework. My teacher sent the next one to me, and now
will start on this next one today, and I wont put it
off!
Love
to all,
R.
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